I haven't been written off yet!
Sometimes, I'm surprised by that fact. As a communicator I'm very aware of non-verbal cues, but I've never been privy to just how reliant I am on them until this whole written correspondence thing. I really should've known, I've never liked talking on the phone, I feel completely disarmed and don't know what to say. Writing letters is very similar, I have no context for what I'm reading. I think it's worse because I knew Hannah so well, and now she's changing as a missionary and I don't have a good frame of reference when judging her written words. It's really confusing, I'm probably over-thinking everything, but that's what I do, I just don't talk about it, thus I type it here.
I'm still expecting to get written off any week. Probably between my upcoming birthday and March, that's been consistent, interestingly Hannah is one of only two girlfriends I've had who have survived an entire winter. I wonder why that is, I have heard people get depressed in the winter, most likely because of the lack of sunlight. I've always enjoyed winter, it usually means more time spent cuddling watching movies or what not, which I'm always a fan of. Of course that could indicate the problem, I could easily see how I might be considered boring during the winter because I don't want to do much, I like to stay in and be warm for the most part. I think it's tough, this time of year is always a lonely time to be alone, and it's one of those perpetual things, I don't do anything because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I don't do anything.
I guess I can't say I don't do anything, I've actually decided to try going on dates again to grind through the winter. Some prospects look promising, including a girl I met who may be my exact personality clone. But I won't get my hopes up. I'll play it safe.